Dwight Gooden admits he should be dead, but he says he’s not, because he’s here for a purpose.

At 19 years old, the youngest starting pitcher in Major League Baseball’s history, he went on to win three World Series rings, was named Rookie of the year and received the Cy Young Award. He was one of the most feared pitchers in all of baseball. But he was most afraid of himself.

“I snorted some cocaine, and it was love at first sniff,” he writes in his new book, "Doc: A Memoir." It was a long love affair that started in 1985 costing him his career, his family, his fortune, his name and almost his life.

In 1986 the night the Mets won the World Series, he says he was so coked out on drugs and booze that he missed the team’s ticker tape parade where thousands of cheering fans filled the streets in a wild celebration as the team went down the “Canyon of Heroes,” a stretch of Lower Manhattan where America’s greatest of the greats are celebrated.

In his memoir he remembers, “I was alone in my

Adam Werbach has a knack for controversy - and for making history.

In 1996, at 23, he was elected the youngest president of the Sierra Club, the environmental organization, which boasted 600,000 members and a budget of $45 million.
“I wasn't even old enough to rent a car, and all of a sudden I was supposed to lead the oldest and largest grassroots environmental organization,” Werbach told “Off the Cuff”, “I remember my first reaction was just, oh my god, I don't know if I can do this, I was just scared.”

Then in 2004 he gave an incendiary speech, “Is Environmentalism Dead?”, at the Commonwealth Club of San Francisco. "I'm done calling myself an environmentalist", he told his audience.
“It was frightening, because it was giving a eulogy for the thing that I loved the most, that I had spent my whole life doing, to the very people who were also invested in it,” Werbach recalled.
Werbach felt the time was right for the organization to ask tough questions, to look deep within itself to see if their mission was on the right track. “I felt was that we were failing, that after spending years and millions, even billions of dollars trying to get the word out about climate change, people weren't changing. We weren't making a difference.”

The controversial speech was widely circulated and the backlash was immediate. The environmental wunderkind lost colleagues and long-time friends.

A year later, he further alienated the environmental community when he teamed up with Wal-Mart, the world’s largest retailer, a company he had called, “a new breed of toxin” that could “wreak havoc on a town” in his 1997 book, “Act Now, Apologize Later.”

“My responsibility was to train the 2 million people who work at Wal-Mart on what sustainability is, and how it can be a tool for change, not just for the earth, but to run a better business.”
He was eviscerated by some environmentalists who said he had “sold his soul” and was accused of abandoning his principles.