Terp your post reminds me of an old movie with Dom DeLuise and Burt Reynolds. I think it was Reynolds who was drowning and swimming to shore and saying to God he would repent and be good. Reynolds mentioned many things he would be better if only God saved him. The closer to shore the more Reynolds took off the table from God. By the time he finally stepped onto the sand all the things he promised God when he was miles off shore had been reneged on. As Idontshort says 'you spent to much time with the Devil"