I am actually sick to my stomach for what this will mean to this young man.
What have you done son? Is it worth it to risk everything and risk the penalty of destroyed reputation and very likely financial ruin? I know desperation. I have been there,...... and it leads to disaster. You are not thinking like an investor but like a gambler which you admit with pride you have been. Please listen. Stop what you are doing and do whatever you can RIGHT NOW to undo the damage to yourself and others you have done. There will be other stocks to short. This one may cost you everything because of your pride. IT IS NOT WORTH IT! PLEASE HEAR ME! It is still possible to save yourself. Forget the losses. You can start over with your obvious but misapplied intelligence and nothing else and eventually with hard work succeed. Please. This is too hard to watch. God have mercy on you.