I understand your situation and share your pain. My pain here is a
little different than most. I could not get long before today (as
I could not free-up some $$ from elsewhere). I have no position.
Even though I did my homework, and would have happily gotten long,
I was helpless. Now by posting and helping others, I want to make
sure that, I also do not forget this event. Somehow I should have
worked a bit harder to get some $$ from somewhere to support my
conviction. Think of God as a great equalizer in such situations.
Folks who go close to Him, are instantly equalized with
Rockefellers of the world! And no more worries in Heaven that some
MMs can control the float like this and induce so much pain on
rational/logical thinkers. WS is a very surprising arena, where
different skills are needed. Most logical-overthinkers are made to
loose by the design of the framework itself! Unfortunate but the
reality is reality and is applicable for this planet.
Brother, God does not work that way. I understand your situation and share your pain. If what you say was true, no one would have been still living on this earth. God is compassionate and loving, therefore, He does not send curse on His children. Even after what you say, He still loves you. I suggest you to read the following verse below, meditate on them, and seek him. In the meantime, I will pray for you. I don't know you but I will pray him for you. To be honest with you, I never comment on message board, I usually read them for fun whenever I need to get a good laughing.
"Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Deuteronomy 4:29 But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.
1 Chronicles 22:19 Now devote your heart and soul to seeking the LORD your God. Begin to build the sanctuary of the LORD God, so that you may bring the ark of the covenant of the LORD and the sacred articles belonging to God into the temple that will be built for the Name of the LORD."
1 Chronicles 28:9 "And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.
2 Chronicles 6:38 and if they turn back to you with all their heart and soul in the land of their captivity where they were taken, and pray toward the land you gave their fathers, toward the city you have chosen and toward the temple I have built for your Name;
2 Chronicles 22:9 He then went in search of Ahaziah, and his men captured him while he was hiding in Samaria. He was brought to Jehu and put to death. They buried him, for they said, "He was a son of Jehoshaphat, who sought the LORD with all his heart." So there was no one in the house of Ahaziah powerful enough to retain the kingdom.
Psalm 32:6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you while you may be found; surely when the mighty waters rise, they will not reach him.
Isaiah 45:19 I have not spoken in secret, from somewhere in a land of darkness; I have not said to Jacob's descendants, 'Seek me in vain.' I, the LORD, speak the truth; I declare what is right.
Jeremiah 24:7 I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the LORD. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will return to me with all their heart.
Amos 5:4 This is what the LORD says to the house of Israel: "Seek me and live;