Forget it mister. You're damaged goods, you're all done. You've definitely cast your lot with the shorts. Now, you live with it.
Once you drink their kool-aide (especially as much as you've been helping yourself to), you might as well stay right with them and their party line.
Why don't you change your I'd to messerschmitt or focke wolf, cause you're no longer on the same side a The Allies.