A smarter person than you would know exactly what to do,,,, Take up drinking!!!!! If you drink yourself into oblivion, there will be no trades made, good, or bad. There are some alternatives, if you are already a confirmed drunk, that could be used to distract yourself from self-loathing. SSS comes to mind, "Self Sex Syndrome". or, FMHS, "Flea Market Hoarding Syndrome". To name a few.