Don't feel bad Ruffturd, there are worse things that have happened along the way. Losing the Guru is taxing I know, but he can't be here forever holding your hand. He's made many predictions en route of which becoming a millionaire was one of them and now it's time for him to move along and disseminate this arcane knowledge.
With the use of small crafts in older days, the Ionian sea may have been subject to much turbulence and deep water, but with today's modern boats, the problem is non-existent. To be on high seas with old crumbling yachts like you have is asking for trouble. It's way more rational to remain confined in your small and reeky cubicle than waste your time trying to appear something you're not. Why don't you sell your five broken down rattletraps and buy something newer---something that would make you proud to be owner?
I'm hoping that you remain patient. Education never ends. Who knows, the educator may be back for more tutoring. One's job is never done. Now that you have become a believer due to his constant pounding, who knows what awaits you. He may decide to include you in his lectures. You'd be handy to pass leaflets around. Does it now dawn on you that you were pretty pig-headed at one time?