YouTuber Jaclyn Hill has taken to Instagram to share her experience living with anxiety and depression, revealing that some days it's so bad she feels like she is "dying".
Jaclyn's latest post comes after she asks fans to stop commenting on her weight, explaining that she had gained 20 pounds in the last 7 weeks.
The makeup artist has had a troublesome few months after the catastrophic launch of her debut line, Jaclyn Hill Cosmetics.
Customers complained her lipsticks had a "gritty" texture, and found them to contain unknown fibres, holes, 'plastic' balls, and even what appeared to be 'metal' fragments.
Since then, Jaclyn has posted two apology videos, issued every single customer who purchased a lipstick with a full refund and deactivated her social media accounts.
She has since returned to social media, but her latest post detailing her mental health struggles, is truly upsetting to read and is eye-opening about the difficulty of living with these issues on a daily basis.
"Some days I have to force myself to get out of bed (this was one of those days) & then force myself to put a smile on my face & then force myself to act like nothing is wrong. And the whole time I feel like I’m dying.
"My heart is racing, I feel like I can’t breathe, I feel like everyone knows how miserable I am & I feel humiliated. BUT I have to remind myself that everything is okay. I am healthy, I am going to be just fine, anxiety & depression can effect even the strongest people.
"I have to remind myself that I am in control of my mind & body! Even when I don’t believe it, I say it! And it’s taken me years of therapy to finally start to accept & agree to that.
"I did not want to go to this cubs game due to my anxiety, but I’m so glad I did! I don’t know who needs to hear this & I feel kind of embarrassed exposing myself like this.... but, it’s okay to not be okay.
"I give millions of thank you’s to my friends, family & subscribers for being there for me and creating such a great support system for one another! I love you all so much! Also, keeping it 💯 I was shaking with anxiety while taking these photos. But remember to breathe! You’re not alone! The night got better."
Following her disastrous first launch, Jaclyn Hill Cosmetics posted the following statement on Instagram:
"At Jaclyn Hill Cosmetics we're dedicated to giving you the best products & customer experience. It is clear that our first launch did not meet the standards we've set as a brand, and for that we are truly sorry.
"We will do better because you deserve better from us and from our products. As we take a moment to rebuild, we just want you to know how grateful we are for the love and support we've received.
"Your satisfaction is our top priority. The future is bright and we're so excited for what's to come."
We're glad Jaclyn has a strong support system and we hope she can work to rebuild her brand.
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